Monday, October 8, 2001
I just got back from a study session sort of thing at a friends apartment. we were there for 3 hours and got less than half of this stupid Econ problem sheet done. it's due tuesday so tomorrow we're gonna meet at my study lounge and try to get it finished. sigh.
I've been trying to think of some ideas for a new layout, but i havent really come up with anything solid yet.
I was gonna do a Buffy layout cause that would be sorta halloweeny, but i couldnt find a good picture that had all the characters i like in it, so thats not gonna work out. Plus the colors would probably end up being black, red and white and i dont really feel like doing that.
Hmmm, what else...oh yeah, Barry Bonds is the man! Go 73! He's such a nice guy too, thats why he's always been one of my favorite baseball players.

munchin on a Granny Smith again today.

song quote of the day..."in my race against time i cant stop, running thru the red lights livin my life"
~ Ja Rule "Race Against Time"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 12:54 a.m.

Saturday, October 6, 2001
Yay! Mutant X has finally premiered. As sad as it is to admit, with the missing of Buffy, that show has made my week. I think thats all i have to say right now.

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 06:05 p.m.

Friday, October 5, 2001
well as everyone already knows there is an antianime pitas site out there, and my blog is one of the sites he has listed as bad. Now i'm not gonna bash him or anything cause i'm not that kind of person and i dont see what good it would do. But i also will not put a link to his site on mine, cause well i dont want to and also because i'm sure that you have all seen it already.
i did go onto his site and sign his guestbook, just because i felt that i should since he linked me on his site. I can understand why people like Carenda have gone after him, of which she did quite a nice job, but i really dont think it's helping the cause any. However i'm sure it made you feel better didnt it?

Now as for those of you who may have come to my site because of that hate filled page...
Hi, my name is Stan. Welcome to my blog. Feel free to look around and please remember to always have an open mind.
I think thats all i have to say about that.

eating nothing today.

song quote of the day..."i know why you want to hate me, cause hate is all the world has even seen lately"
~ Limp Bizkit "Take a Look Around" (i know i've already used this song, but i felt it appropriate once again to use lyrics from it)

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 07:41 p.m.

Wednesday, October 3, 2001
You know i think i'm gonna go this entry without complaining about anything. Instead i just wanna say hi and thanks to all the wonderful and super nice people in my life. Ya'lls know who you are. I know it may not seem like i cherish your presence in my life, but i do, i'm just not good at showing it.
Moving on to another topic, i think i'm gonna get Monster Rancher 3 when i get my PS2. I read two reviews on it today and both of the people really liked it. Too bad there's no Genki or Holly, but it still sounds like fun.

while writing today's entry i was eating a cup of dry Raisin Bran, they taste better with milk i might add.

song quote of the day..."give up all of my plans, but who needs them when you mean everything"
~ Lit "Miserable"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 11:47 p.m.

Tuesday, October 2, 2001
dammit! dammit! dammit! I freakin missed the season premiere of Buffy, been waiting all summer and I miss it.
Argh.
I just read a tiny review that said it was such a good episode and all that...dammit. That show makes my week and i missed it, the whole freakin two hour thing. Why did it have to move to UPN, if it was on WB i could have watched it later. WB i hate you, you bunch of morons, next time bid more money to keep your highest rated show.
ugh.

while writing this angry blog entry i was eating another Granny Smith, if they ever leave me i dunno what i would do.

song quote of the day..."Never ever have I ever felt so low, when you gonna take me out of this black hole. Never ever have I ever felt so sad, the way I'm feelin yeah, you got me feelin really bad"
~ All Saints "Never Ever"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 11:15 p.m.

Monday, October 1, 2001
so today i was taking one of my music naps, like i do every MWF and i was listening to one of my three playlists that i made to coincide with naps. And a knock at the door wakes me up. It's the girl next door, she wanted to know the name of the song i was playing. She seemed nice, but thats beside the point. The point is that i had no idea she lived next door, if i hadnt seen her walk back into her room i would of had no clue where she lived. Isnt that a shame, i dont even know who my neighbors are and now that i think of it i dont know who lives on the other side of us either.
gah i need to stop being so afraid to talk to people (yeah right).
oh and i had no idea the music was that loud that people next door could hear it that clearly with their door closed, guess i'll have to turn the volume down when i take my Wednesday nap. Ooh i almost forgot, the song was Fade by Staind. Good song, go get it.

eating a Granny Smith again today, yeah!

song quote of the day..."i just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself"
~ Staind "Fade" (of course i had to put it in)

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 10:47 p.m.

Sunday, September 30, 2001
i think i have given up trying in Accounting. For the first two chapters i sat here and did all the problems, for the third i just looked at the problems and then studied the answers in the answer book, and now for the last two chapters i've just not even bothered to open the book. But the problems arent like due or anything so they dont really matter right?
dah well, school sucks.
you know what, i dont think i have anything else to say today.
i'm still kinda upset about the scores i got on that test yesterday, apparently i'm even worse off then i thought i was. Although those Neuroticism numbers are right where i figured they would be, i have no problem with that category.

while blogging today i was eating a hot pocket.

song quote of the day..."i'd rather not even be then the man that's staring in the mirror thru me"
~ Linkin Park "Part of Me"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 11:16 p.m.

Sunday, September 30, 2001
i cant believe Saturday is over already, what in the world did i do all day.
I did get up to watch the season premiere of X-men Evolution, they showed my beloved Jubilee so i was happy. Other than that all i can remember is chatting with Codi and Cori .
speaking of Codi she gave me a link to a personality type test thingie , the results arent really good ones, but they're true so i guess i cant complain. I am what i am.

So here goes...
EXTRAVERSION 1 (ouch)
friendliness..........4
gregariousness........2
assertiveness.........0
activity level........0
excitement-seeking....3
cheerfulness..........6

your score in extraversion is low, indicating you are introverted, reserved, and quiet. you enjoy solitude and solitary activities. your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends.
heheh now isnt that the saddest bunch of numbers you have ever seen.

AGREEABLENESS 96
trust.................83
morality..............88
altruism..............68
cooperation...........90
modesty...............99
sympathy..............60

your high level of agreeableness indicates a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. you are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative.

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS 58
self-efficacy.........72
orderliness...........59
dutifulness...........90
achievement-striving..17
self-discipline.......25
cautiousness..........74

your score on conscientiousness is average. this means you are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

NEUROTICISM 28
anxiety...............5
anger.................4
depression............83
self-consciousness....99
immoderation..........6
vulnerability.........8

your score on Neuroticism is low, indicating that you are exceptionally calm, composed and unflappable. you do not react with intense emotions, even to situations that most people would describe as stressful.

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE 1 (ouch again)
imagination...........0 (that sucks)
artistic interests....19
emotionality..........0
adventurousness.......11
intellect.............2 (style not ability)
liberalism............40

your score on Openess to Experience is low, indicating you like to think in plain and simple terms. others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative.

Well there ya go folks, thats Stan for ya. It's a pretty accurate Stan for ya too. Maybe a couple things i could complain about but i think it would just be denial so i wont bother. Oh yeah and i realize the numbers dont match up but i'm too tired to worry about it now, hopefully you can still understand them.

while writing this incredibly long blog entry i was eating a very burnt bagel. Mike must have turned up the intensity on the toaster since i used it last.

song quote of the day..."i am whatever you say i am, if i wasnt then why would i say i am, in the paper the news everyday i am. i dunno thats just the way i am"
~ Eminem "The Way I Am"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 02:10 a.m.

Wednesday, September 26, 2001
hiya all...uh what was i gonna say.
oh yeah! So DBZ today almost made me cry, when Goku came back and they showed Krillin and he was crying and little Goten got to meet him for the first time. As soon as they showed Krillin i felt a tear and then little Goten was all shy and Goku started playing with him. It was such a happy moment. Then Krillin told Marron to sure to root for her daddy, it was all so cute.
You know i have two exams on Friday, i should probably be doing something about that, but i dont really feel like it. One is Geology, which i'm not worried about cause its multiple choice and the worst i can possibly do on any multiple choice test is a C just by sheer logic. So thats no biggy, but the other is Accounting and its gonna be two and a half hours long. However i'm not as lost as i thought cause i got a B on the quiz. Which means that i'm not in the group of people she kept talking about who did really bad on the quiz. Guess we'll just have to see how it goes.

On a different note, it really bothers me when students start packing their stuff and making a lot of noise when the Professor is still trying to teach. It's so freakin rude. If he/she needs to teach a couple minutes extra let them do it. You can just see it on the Professor face that it kinda hurts their feelings or something, like these students care so little about what they have to say that they'll just leave in the middle of a sentence. If i didnt have an intense fear of speaking out loud in a large group of people i would stand up and tell all those kids to shut the hell up until the professor was done teaching...but we all know that will never happen. So for all you's still in school, i'm asking you...just wait until the teacher says you can go before you start to pack up.

While blogging today i was consuming a nicely toasted bagel with creamed cheese.

song quote of the day..."pardon me while i burst into flames. i've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games"
~ Incubus "Pardon Me"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 08:02 p.m.

Monday, September 24, 2001
ok so i just read Codi's blog. Aww...i'm sorry you arent feeling well Codi. My nose does that too when i get a cold. But hey, at least we get one side to breathe out of right?
Dont worry about dling DNA^2, i can send it to you if you want it. I can package it with Love Hina and Lain, thats if you want them too. Just lemme know.
Oh and Burger King is much better than McDonalds :P
Feel better!

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 10:33 p.m.

Monday, September 24, 2001
just another day today...nothing special.
Talked to Anna for the first time today, she was at work. Hi Anna! Doubt she is reading this, but ah well.
Got my Geography HW done earlier then usual today cause i forced myself to do it. Yay me! Dunno what i'll do for the rest of the night, probably sit here and stare at the TV...it would be a sin for me to actually do something productive.
Watching Freaks and Geeks right now, funny show. I dont know why they canceled this one either.

While writing this entry i was eating a Granny Smith Apple...thats right kids they're back at the dining hall.

song quote of the day..."you're getting closer to pushing me off of life's little edge, cause i'm a loser and sooner or later you know i'll be dead"
~ 3 Doors Down "Loser"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 10:06 p.m.

Monday, September 24, 2001
not much to say today...had work to do, didnt do it. I'm sure i'll mention it again this week.
blah.

On a happier note, The Critic is coming on. Yay! Why oh why did this show get canceled?

Just got done with some oreos so no food while writing this entry.

song quote of the day..."i wish the real world would just stop hassling me"
~ Matchbox 20 "Real World"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 12:57 a.m.

Sunday, September 23, 2001
ok, so Kim , Carenda, Mike and I went to a midnight showing of The Rocky Horror Picture Show tonight.
I can honestly say that it was one of the most frightening experiences of my life. People scare me are there were a bunch of odd people there who could do something unpredictable at any minute. Thank God that Mike switched seats with me cause they had actors who went out into the seats and did stuff and i was on the end. Getting off the end put my mind at least a little more at ease. heheh i'm such a weirdo.

Oh oh, so the wonderful Cori made me some sprites. They can be seen at the bottom there in their own little section. Just so you all know she is my new God (or Goddess whatever). Hooray for Cori!

So i went thru and read the last week of blog entries for people. And i cant really think of anything to say, Codi and Kim got themselves some fantastic new layouts, excellent job, like you had to be told right?
And Cori when i took the Tenchi character test i had Ryoko first which i dont see at all and it kinda worried me...cant remember where other people were, i do remember Kagato being last and if we both have him last it has to be a good thing right?
I see that Carenda has mentioned me a couple times so i should say something to her. Hi Carenda. Uh, i hope someday you do quit smoking and you know how i feel about missing school for work. Also, dont worry about me quiting school, like you said i'm not a quiter and i'm not gonna start now. I'm riding this nightmare right to the end.

While writing this entry i was eating a leftover piece of Papa John's Pizza.

song quote of the day..."aint no sunshine when it's on, only darkness everyday"
~ DMX "Aint no Sunshine"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 04:35 a.m.

Thursday, September 20, 2001
Another short entry today while i take a break from work. Umm...not much to say today, i took my Geography test today, not exactly sure how it went. It didnt seem too bad, i'm fairly decent at BSing my way thru somethings. We'll just have to see how receptive the Professor is to it. Accounting quiz tomorrow, completely lost...hopefully she gives us an easy problem to work on. After my quiz tomorrow i wont have to work again like it did this week for a while, so i'm pretty happy about that.
Hmm...smoking is nasty, dont do it. That goes out to the impressionable youths, Plus i needed a little something to make this entry a bit longer.

While writing this entry i was eating some UTZ pretzels, i dont like pretzels but i was hungry and they were there.

song quote of the day..."i've been feeling uninspired, battered and broken tired"
~ 8 Stops 7 "Uninspired"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 07:20 p.m.

Wednesday, September 19, 2001
Just a short blog today as i take a snack break from work. Just had an hour study session with Lou about our Econ HW and it turns out that i might actually know whats goin on in that class. At least when i have my notes in front of me. However, accounting is slipping away from me. I havent been doing the HW all the way thru and i'm starting to lose what is going on in class. But judging from what i have overheard from other people, so is everyone else. Got a test in Cultural Geography tomorrow, not gonna do well on that. Basically i have to memorize every word from the reading we had to do and the lectures so that i can write freakin essays and short answers to whatever questions the Prof. feels like asking. Essay tests are not my thing. I really should read over my notes, but i have to recopy my Econ HW first. I'll get to studying eventually, plus i'm gonna wake up a bit early tomorrow to study some more.
Wish me luck wont you?

While writing this entry i was eating some cinnamon poptarts.

song quote of the day..."and it seems nobody's interested in learning, but the teacher"
~ The Temptations "Ball of Confusion"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 10:38 p.m.

Wednesday, September 19, 2001
i dont really know why i am blogging again, guess cause i'm bored...i just dled some more winamp skins, got a lot of Rei and Sakura skins, plus some DBZ and various others. Got a Sano skin, i think its the first one i've seen, i was pretty happy about that. And one of the Sakura skins was like a 3d pic of her in this black jester uniform, its freakin awesome lookin'. Winamp skins are fun.
I just realized that i should probably be reading other people's blogs so i can comment on them or something...it kinda feels like i'm invading people's privacy or something, but i guess it cant be that private if its posted on the internet eh? Mayhaps i'll get all caught up this weekend.
I probably should have done more work today, but i just dont have the drive. No doubt that i did do the most work today that i have done this semester, but i still slacked off too much...ugh.
I think i'll go to bed now so maybe i wont be tired tomorrow. G'nite all.

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 01:37 a.m.

Tuesday, September 18, 2001
ugh...i have so much work to do this week. I'm taking a little break now so that i can rant some more.
I want a car. Right now having a car isnt super necessary, but come summer time when i'm at my new house in Dover a car is gonna be real important. Not only am i gonna need one to get me to and from work, but i'm gonna need one to go places and do stuff. Up here during the summers i have friends who are willing to drive me around to the movies and what-not. But down there i dont know anyone and with my ineptitude for making friends odds are that i'm not gonna know anyone anytime soon. How am i gonna get out of the house? I can't drive my mom's van everywhere cause she needs it too and i dont want to have to have my parents drive me everywhere. Therefore, i need a car. I think if they have the money to move into a new house my parents can buy me a cheap $3000 car. Thats all i ask. Something that looks fairly decent and moves without an excessive amount of noise. There was a time back when i was 17 that i had money in the bank, enough money in fact to buy me a $3000 car, but my parents wouldnt let me get one cause they said i didnt have enough experience. Hello! how am i supposed to get experience without a car? But that time has come and gone, and now that they finally accept that i can drive i do not have the money for a car and they will not buy one for me.
I think since they are making me move when they know that i dont want to they could do something nice for me and buy me a car.
But what i think doesnt matter.

While writing this entry i was eating another Granny Smith Apple, i love those things and they're good for you too.

song quote of the day..."i hate my life i hate my life, never want another wife. I want the life you think i have, think i have"
~ Dave Navarro "Rexall"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 07:53 p.m.

Tuesday, September 18, 2001
I've been Blogged! hehe, its a good thing Kim told me she was gonna do that or else i would not have known that i was supposed to respond. What a nice way to connect one person's blog to another.
So anyway, here goes.
Well i don't know what yech foo means but it sounds appropriate when refering to school. I think we have some self worth problems or something. Yeah, i'm a place oriented person too, and i dont like change so poo on moving. Actually when i told Bonnie i was moving her consolation to me was also that i would be closer to her, so who knows i may be spending some time down there this summer. And i do love visiting your house.
Yeah, i'm not worrying too much about my dad's mentioning of a grandchild, he'll be fine without one for a while.
Hahahah i didnt know your mom felt that way about me, reading that made me laugh. I know how it is though, my parents want me to marry my sister's friend Amber...and they actually told HER that. I mean i like her and all, but i dont see a relationship working out, much like one between you and me. Two shy and quiet people should not be together, it just doesnt work. Tell your mom that, see if it gets her to stop.
I am not quite sure about your Julia Roberts reference, i guess i havent seen that movie. What's George's relationship to the whole situation?
dah well, i'm hungry.

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 03:26 p.m.

Monday, September 17, 2001
I hate school so much. And i'm not one to just throw around the word hate at anything, in fact i think that school might be the only thing that i truly hate, well besides terrorists of course.

So why am i at school you ask. Why thats a good question, thank you for asking. My dad is a house painter and ever since i can remember he has told me that he doesnt want me to have to work like him. He says i'm too smart to be out there working my ass off to earn a living. And also ever since i can remember, he has been out there working his ass off so that my sisters and I can have the best upbringing we could possibly of had. I love my dad more than anything in the world and i refuse to let him down. There will come a time when he's not gonna be able to wake up at 5:30 six days a week to go into work and when that day comes i wanna be able to support him like he has me all these years. And i can't do that if i'm working some part time job at a burger joint. So thats why i'm here. Course i would never tell him that.

My mom says that she wants me to be happy and that i should transfer over to Del Tech since i hate school so much.
I've already excepted that i'm not gonna be happy, i would much rather my parents be happy and i believe that graduating from this university and going out into the real world and becoming a success would make them happy. Like they were such good parents that their son became a successful man, ya know? Because they are the greatest parents and if i dont become successful its not because of anything they didnt do, it would be all my fault. I know they would still be proud of me if i graduated from Del Tech, but i would feel that i let them down and i cant have that. But i wouldnt tell her that, I just told her that i didnt want to go to Del Tech.
Oh yeah and my dad said that he wants a grandkid before he's too old to be able to do anything with it, but frankly unless someone rapes me in my sleep, i dont see that happening anytime soon, so i'll just worry about graduating for now.

While writing this entry i was eating a Granny Smith Apple.

Song quote of the day..."life is a lesson, you'll learn it when you're through"
~ Limp Bizkit "Take a Look Around"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 08:14 p.m.

Sunday, September 16, 2001
I DONT WANT TO MOVE! with that being said...my family and i went down to Dover today to look at some houses. The lady who was showing us the houses was in a hurry or something so we only got to see four houses. None of these houses showed me any reason why we should move. One of them had a little potential, but i still dont see me liking it more than our current house. There is nothing wrong with our house now, i know it, my parents know it, but they still want to move. Well its more like my mom wants to move and my dad got tired of hearing her talk about moving so he gave in, that and he wants her to be happy. So we are moving, no matter how much i object. As we were driving down to Dover i actually felt a tear in my eye. Now that may not seem like much to most people, but for me that is a lot. Ugh, i hate whinning. I really dont want people feeling bad because of my complaining.

But anyway, on to the other events of the day. We went to eat at some buffet type restraunt thingie. And at the table next to ours there was this girl, she couldnt have been older than 14, but she kept staring at me. Now i noticed this pretty quickly cause i am fairly observant. So we were eating and my mom asks my sister if she has any romantic interests in her life, now my sister is like me in that she is a pretty private person, so she of course said no. Then my mom moves on to me, and i of course say no too, cause its true. Then my parents go into the normal parent thing saying that how good looking we are and how they cant believe that we dont have any interests. So blah. But then my dad mentions that it looked like someone was interested in me right now, turns out he had noticed the girl too. Apparently thats where i get my observant nature from. So, he points her out to my mom and sister and the whole rest of the time we are there, they are stealing looks at her to see if she is looking at me and she usually was, so they made a big deal out of it. My dad kept wanting me to wave at her. I was more interesting in our waitress cause she was cute and more my age, but i of course didnt tell them that. So when she got up to leave my dad, mom and sister told me to wave at her, plus they watched her walk out and counted how many times she looked back. 3 if you are interested and no i didnt wave, cause i was embarassed. We left very shortly after her and her family so when we got outside their car was driving by and my mom waved at it...they say she waved back, but i wasnt looking so i cant be sure.
So thats my little story.

oh, i found a Rei pic. Aint it cute?

Again today i have just come back from dinner so i am not eating anything as i write this.

song quote of the day..."without a sense of confidence, i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take"
~ Linkin Park "Crawling"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 05:50 p.m.

Saturday, September 15, 2001
well i'm just sitting here working on the look of my page, man i really don't know what i'm doing. HUGE thanks go out to Codi for her help. I dont know what this thing would look like if it wasnt for you Codi. You layout Queen you. In case you cant tell my layout is pretty much a straight up copy of hers. I kinda wanted a red and black theme, but that seems pretty popular so i think i'm gonna go another root. Rei from Eva wears a white and black uniform, her hair is blue (sometimes lighter than others) and her eyes are red. And i do love me some Rei, so thats where i got my colors. I think it'll look pretty nice once i get it up and running. Of course i gotta find a good Rei pic to put up, it wouldnt be complete without one.
So why the Krillin pic you ask? Well, cause he's the man, duh. I cant have a site without a Krillin pic.

Oh, so i just found out that my little sister opened up my Japanese Team Rocket action figure package and played with them. She actually called earlier and asked me if she could play with this Pokemon thing i had in my room, but i didnt know what thing she was talking about. I figured it was just something i had lying around. I was pretty upset when my mom told me thats what it was. I still am pretty upset actually.

I just came back from dinner, so i'm not eating anything as i write this.

song quote of the day..."and you always seem out-numbered, you dont dare make a stand"
~ Metallica "Turn the Page"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 06:31 p.m.

Saturday, September 15, 2001

hehe, the person who runs this site calls people chief.
Well, i'm sitting here all alone so i decided to make myself a blog. Don't really know why, but i needed something to do. Since this is my first entry i might as well say a few things. First of all, don't expect any deep thoughts or emotional entries cause i'm not very good with words and i don't express my feelings well...or ya know, ever. With that being said, welcome to the one or two people who actually care to read what i have to say.

So today two girls from down the hall knocked on the door and asked to borrow a movie, like in the commercial for that show Undeclared...I wonder if thats where they got the idea. Anyway, I introduced them to the wonder that is my five video collection. They picked The Matrix and were on their way. I wish i was better with people. What a perfect oppurtunity to get to know some people on the floor and i wasted it. I can't even remember their names. The fact that i was asleep when they knocked didnt really help either. I mean, i think i'm a nice guy, but to everyone except for the few people that i spend loads of time with i probably just come off as cold and i dont really have it in me to change that. Thank God for Mike, if it wasnt for him I would not have met anyone here and i'd hate it here even more than i already do...which is hard to fathom.

blah.

While writing this entry i was eating a Hot Pocket.

song quote of the day..."its been a while since i could really, hold my head up high"
~ Staind "It's Been a While"

-Stan last went Super Saiyan at 01:29 a.m.